long hard way out of hell...

it's going pretty decent with the friggin exams...sure, it's pretty nerv wracking but heck, in the end the fact that I've pased these first ones is all that matters... the stress that keeps piling up will dissipate with time and i guess in the end, one way or the other, it will all work out.... hopefuly for the best.... 'till that time comes.... I only hope I won't lose my wits
or don't become too changed in the process.... heck... when all this is over, i'm gonna be the happiest man in the world... still got a long way to go though.... at least i've started all this crap with the right foot.... who knows, I might just get outta this alive... I wanna live... I wanna love... but it's a long hard way outta hell...

darkest hour...

today's the day the shit hits the fan... 10 exams that define my near-future... too bad there's nowhere else to run... did that 'till now, and look what it ammounted to... too bad life doesn't stop... even when it should stop... but heck... there's no escaping it... might as well take the plunge and hope I come out the other side in one piece... and with 0 exams left... fuck I hate this... nowhere else to run...