a year older...

heh, it's been awhile since I've posted in this blog thingie... I guess I never really settled the idea in my skull that I've got this thing, and that it's a good idea to update it from time to time, at least once every two months... lol... heh, my birthday came and went, just like any other day, considering that it used to be such a special time of the year, and then it somehow became just your average day of the week/year... nothing fun about it, nothing special about it... don't get me wrong...it was fun having all my friends around me, drinking, talking, smoking, playing pool... laughing our asses off, basically having a good time... the time spent with my folks was also enjoyable, 'cause it's been awhile since I've given them any of my time... so I really enjoyed catching up on recent events with my parents, and finding out what their wishes were, or their recent plans to go to some skiing resort in the mountains... I guess they deserve a few weeks off, considering they haven't taken some time off work in about 2 or maybe 3 years... I'm getting older, and they're not getting any younger, and I dread the day when... I dare not say it... nevermind that... bottom line is... it was a great time... it just didn't FEEL special like it used to... it seems that somewhere along the way I've lost taste for all that made me happy once... I remember when I was a kid, I used to spend time around the christmas tree, and smell the sweet scent of the branches, and look out the window as the snow would pour down from the grey skies, turning everything white... aah, those were the days... but last christmas... nothing... I barely spent any time around the christmas tree... I was always passing through... taking quick glances in that general direction, then mindind my own business... something's changed... well besides the fact that I've grown more mature since those days... but something's definitely changed, I can't help having the feeling I'm missing something, and I can't put my finger on it... either way... I guess I'll have to figure that one out for myself...